Nice coffee break wit this?

I have came back with different perspective in life....feeling so wierd comin back to Singapore..hahahas..maybe bcos of the bulidings. All of them are mostly 3 stories high n the environment there so was much more backward. The air was dusty at dawn( u tin this only happened in story book?) and man..it's 39 degree celsius in the afternoon.

it was not at all comfortable and relaxing holiday..but one humbling experience. Saw so much of the outside world outside Singapore. the desperate of earning money by the locals makes me stop and ponder how should we treasure what we have...

i saw houses along river no bigger than your bathroom..kidding? no kidding.. i was chased by local kids atmost everywhere,..persistently trying to make me buy things from them: 'jie jie..san ke mei jing yi qiute'( sister, 3 for US$1).. plenty of kids everywhere, more like begging for money rather than genuinely selling u things. i talk to heros that survived the cambodia war.. one of which whose parents had no choice but to bury him with leaves under the tree when he was 2 years old. His parents were running away from soldiers, get it?

n another hero...our war museum tour guide.. whose family (father, mother, n sister) was ALL shot by a soldier when he was a kid!!! u noe..ALL ALL ALL!!!!!!! hey, do you know that 3millions victims were shot by the king and his soldiers during the cambodia war? My tour guide was hit three times by gun shot, involve in land mine for five times which caused him to lose a leg, gone blind temporary for 2 yrs, ... n suffer from seisure every now and then bcos of the ball bearings that when into his skin during land mine. I'll cry bcos his tradegy did not end here...

His wife was killed by land mine 2 yrs ago. He will be blind permantly 2 yrs later...n he has a 8 yr old daughter to feed..how will he cope? I truely respect him for his determination to live on in life! u noe, Doctor once tried to try to put him to slp but he escaped, i believe he'll find a way out in life 2 yrs later=)

i tot of something...we had every single freedom choice to study but the kids there dun. They are weigh down by circumstances..trying to earn enuff for good life..N man..our life is at least haf better than what they wanted to earn for. Or perhaps i shall offer another perpective..do the kids even know that studying is impt? All they care is earning money! n i really wonder, when can they walk out of the provety circle without education?

THis let me...
LOVE KNOWLEDGE...LOVE WORKING HARD FOR KNOWLEGE..so do you?

Shalom in me(-.-)
11:49 PM

emo'ing.
dun be affected...hahahahas

2m i'll be going cambodia...somehow looking forward it though i noe it'll not be a grand grand holiday... this few days..i'll go into my lala land n then realise how sad can i be when i think of the ppl close to me going through hard times...i just feel sad for them yah...not one, not two..but three. i dunno how to console them...n it's just a v uncomfortable sadness seeing them so sad...one of them is one dad's 20 yrs of friend going through last stage of cancer.., n he'll die anytime. Wat can i say,..but to hope that he can fulfil all his dream on earth.

I always think this earth as less fagile n less brokenless..but i'm wrong..u c.

N yup... this trip will allow me to adjust my feelings...i need more grace n strenght to listen to sad news n for myself... i noe that i shouldnt be sad bcos its entirely not directly affecting me.. i noe that i'll be fine after i come back..

n i really noe that i'll be touching the piano keys once again when i come back. Ever since last last tue..i have been thinking whether should i give up..hmmm...=.=

o wells...everyone grow to be better n stronger after a rest rite?...so do rest well if you need one yah?

Shalom in me(-.-)
12:55 AM

O i cant believe the people in my company...lots of stupid politics...colleagues complaining to me about another colleagues, saying 'A' scold her bcos of 'C' faults...

and then there's this pretty gal complaining abt 'heavy workload' to male boss..(ah ya not so pretty oso lor)...and then the male boss go and ask the manger to find more part time staff to help the "pretty gal'..what the heck.

My female boss make me file 33 files, one file (300pages)...damn bossy ah.

Colleagues with tattoos and socialise by smoking together outside office during lunch time and office hour..

Worst still..listen to this
(last friday conversation)

*Butter(male Y): "i think *kiss(female Z) is 70Kg"...

kiss upon hearing this stop and say: "Wat u say!?"

*Butter: "you 70kg huh?" (he laughs)

*Kiss( wit her usual ah lian daring character): "u want this bubble tea to be pour on your head"

*Butter using his manly low pitch voice yet with childish laughter quipped: " I dun mind..better still..all over my body...then you can lick me...i'll taste like your bubble tea"!

So disgusted by me hor=s .... n come to think abt this...it is not Butter first time saying all this...even more best "jokes"..wanna hear..hear it life from me!

And another one... he calls all the office gals "DARLING"..Sweet? (ROLL EYES)

Last one: One classic sentence my colleague taught me..."if u cannot convince, just confuse... "-_-

hahahahhahahahss...since when do i become so bitchy..actually i was exaggerating everything except the conversation btw Butter and Kiss. Just for laughter. I do like my company a lot.

Shalom in me(-.-)
12:06 AM

God cares!
No matter what failure you are facing through now...no matter how the world can come crushing over you...God's love for you never changes. He will cry with you for he understands the pain in you...and he promises to carry you till the very end...but all he ask is: 'Do you trust in me".

Shalom in me(-.-)
11:59 PM

Jisaw Puzzle...
Have been thinking quite a bit tis few days in office while doing my as usual brainless job...and everytime when i tin of Who God is...i'll be overwhelmed with gratitude and by his greatness.

(I'm sorry for friends that are not Christian...that i always blog abt my God..)

Thinking about what is humanity and this is what purpose driven told me...:"If someone takes unfair advantage of you, use the occasion to practice servant life" and "humanity is not thinking less of yourself but thinking of yourself less"...

What the heck...i guess its so hard to understand what this two sentences mean and can we really practice the first one...the book even says that we are selfish by nature ..n thus i guess, we do have a lot to think about "wat if, today, i meet with an unfair advantage?"

mayb... i what i suffer most is 'pride'...N come'on guys..who dun have pride?..who dun want others to recognise that you are a sucuessful person? but when i think about it...is pride so impt.?.

anyway, I'm trying to distinct the differences btw pride and confident..do tell me if u have noe the ans to it..ha has

I'm learning new things everyday wit new frustrations yet new joy...perhaps we should learn to be more carefree...yupyup!

Shalom in me(-.-)
1:36 AM