Thougth tt my mood wont b good today, but it turn out well. cos looking at my messy room, i dare not complaint that i'm bored. Its like, there so much things to do, n becuz of being lazy, i rather not do anything than things that are difficult. Moreover, i can smell nice foods tt my neighbour is cooking now. Food aroma is a good therpy that is yet to be used over again and again.
When i watch 'gong' today, i realised wat is love. the chinese vesion will be better lah.
Love is when the accompany of someone unknowingly becomes part of ur life. in another words, having he/she around is a certain type of habit. When he left, it turned into emptiness cuz habit ish not a matter that can be change whether in a short time or for years.
When u realised hanging out wit someone becomes a habit, be v careful cos u migth have fallen in love. hahas. theories that one mus follow u noe.... but in another angle, friends are my habits as well. Feeling lonely and depressed is part of my habit too and i noe that when this feeling goes away, there would b only emptiness. and emptiness is more scary than feeling sad=( hai.
Cheer up everyone ba
Shalom in me(-.-)
11:14 AM
* Thursday, February 22, 2007 *
COuldnt help to say i'm v bored tis 2 days... it looks to me that sometimes i cannot survive if i dun haf frenz. had been accompanying my grandma too. when my grandpa died, i do c her slim down a lot suddenly. hai, human instinct tells us y. Treasure someone if tis person mean much to u. 2 reasons:
RElationships is the only thing that last enternally. cant help being pesimistic but we never understand issues abt death. haven learn much in joke bk cos i dun haf one. sob sob. going fly kite los..........
Shalom in me(-.-)
9:09 PM
* Wednesday, February 21, 2007 *
anw... jus feel like whinning at this moment. jus CAme back from one day trip to malaysi sponsor by wt's mum. Had tis culture shock becuz all the trip encompass only abt fafafa...means being rich and oso going to different temples to seek fountune. poor Wt n me not only have to accompany 'them' ( aunties-.-) through out the jouney but still have to endure the squeaky sound of the speaker. The most fortunate thing is that of the company of wt. It was quite fun.........
CNY didnt make a big diff to me..hanging out in malaysia and oso in my grandma hse, wear the norm clothes i wore. kinda sad as in the atmsphere fades year after year.
eheeee....wats ur dream? cos i dreamt abt my dreams ystd. kinda sweet. i was in korea with a grade five cert to sit for my exam den my parents promise to buy me a grand paino lalalah.
rattling on v unless lor. i'm going to read up joke bk to entertain myself alrdy. sad entertainment la.
Shalom in me(-.-)
12:15 AM
* Tuesday, February 13, 2007 *
One day past like that
"U have complained too much." happiness is like a oak tree not a mushroom. Therefore, happiness that was sparked off like a matchstick, or spring up like a mushroom died off quickly. tis few days haven been good... every joy was just short-lived.
i must have complained too much....... have u ever heard of hydrophonic. if i'm not wrong,it is using technologies to cultivate plants that cant be grown in a particular place. like wise, joy can be grown in places where places i never know=) it's jus how i find the method.
i'm happy and i should.
Shalom in me(-.-)
4:28 PM
* Saturday, February 10, 2007 *
Yeah...today we celebrated valentine in church by having a late evening party... wit loads of lame jokes and silly love stories confession by the band. They lit up my soul. The best thing is that wt, my cousin and me were having so much fun. it has been a long time we really sit down to enjoy and fellowship in the sweet aroma of friendship...n its with the romatic lighting worx=) THANK GOD! fuji and yang ting came to our church too0o0o.
Then SAm, the band member of the nigth ask a question can bestfriend exist within a gal n a guy. i stil think that my answer is no lah. is like do u think batman have a good felmale friend. c, no rite... thats y he didn't suffer like spiderman and superman. wahaHA.... feel so high today.
Shalom in me(-.-)
11:44 PM
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The AL Gal Mad Chalet
OOoO...the chalet was SUPER fun=) thans so much lolz. if i got the pic n stuff den i tell u al...lalalalah.
Shalom in me(-.-)
12:18 AM
* Friday, February 09, 2007 *
My heart is cold yet bleeding...my mind refuses to think.
By the way...Got back my olevel results. Everyone is happy for me. Thans for al of their encouragement... it warmed my heart certainly. Painful memories flashed across my useless grey-matter again today... i once failed my eng, i once fail myself, once nearly dig out my heart to blame myself for mixing out the signing up date for my olevel.
But i'm glad as wat wt had say, it's all over. N i've tried so hard, did well to make God proud. As days past, i'll packed these memories neatly back into the dark areas of my brain.
It hurt when i know that the place i first visited is getting more crowded each day as the festives season is drawing near. Gazing at the crowd where memories flowed back, seeing the sincere smiles on everyone face yet feeling jus as empty as the relationship...hurts me unknowingly. There is nothing more i know i can do.
Shalom in me(-.-)
11:54 PM
* Sunday, February 04, 2007 *
ArRh...so full again. tis 3 days i tin i have eating a lot and it feels so good. eating ice-cream, western food, steamboat.... look so wat if i get fatter? it really doesnt matter much. Cubby equals to cute lah. Anw, can't believe that i'm 18 years old le. i feel so mature, hu noes i might watch m18 violence show alone soon? sound exciting lolz. My new year resolution is to erm. NOT BE SO BLUR. hahahas. u guys just watch n c, i will live as to wat i say one. besides, wanna stop being so fickle-minded le, not good to myself, not good to others too:( but, i jus want to be carefree, as carefree=happy.
Thans wt for treating me so nice. hahahs. going chalet 2m alreadi, eagerly waiting for it.
[Sob.. i'll lEt it gO though its hard...pain, pain, v pain lah]
Shalom in me(-.-)
9:19 PM
* Thursday, February 01, 2007 *
What happens when the clock strikes 12am today. n m free to fly...
"dun b lost in the desert, i know it too well, ure the one hu will lost ur way not me. take care"
Shalom in me(-.-)
11:26 PM
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Today went Suki Yuki for buffer wit the gang lah... wow, lots of fun. yu dan also joined us for lunch. They say can buy 4D already. The food was average lah, but cos i tin we can cook v well, thats y its so nice. Den the opposite table was so greedy, 4 gals( identities secret) ate so much huh! hehe. den when Chinatown with kenny. Lost our way.. hai, lucky finally found our way through. but then hor, when we reached the destination, i too tired to shop already lah.
