Was that me?
I hate it...i hate it.. i hate it n I HATE IT! sometimes i get seriously quiet bcos i no longer wants to hear from anyone. I shut my heart, yet the anger has filled my mind. I dun want to hear any from him...too many * had disappointed me, esp him. 'Do you know how i feel?' u dare ask in your nic? huh? Then do you noe how all of us feel? huh? HUHHUHUHUH? Our disappointment has turned us to a angry monster. What can we do? I feel so useless, seeing everyday your life being ruined a little by little, yet i can only sign n sign...and recently just overwhelmed with anger that has send drops, just a few drops of tears to me. But how can anyone affect me so much? I wish you can read this... U noe how we feel? We love u too much to see u running straight into the graveyard you are blindly digging for yourself. I wont complaint....just hope to see him change one day.

Hai.................HAiiiiiii. stop complaining lah. ok. Today went shopping wit my cousin, Hui. So happy even though she had shopped the whole day for a sweater n end up cant find one. Her expression makes me giggle and laugh. just dunno y? but i tin that's b'cos it's one very genuine harmless anger. It just the time we can chill up tgt=) We ate aunty Annes, curry puff and yami yohurt. Hahahas. Foods is my best medicines, wit them i dun think i can be vvvvvvv sad yah. on Friday, i spend a whole night wit Wt, eating pasta mania for dinner, den spending a little into the nite having gal talk... SAt when for MEET again. It was our last meeting after 9 months of training. Was so relief and proud that I had gone through it. My weekends is one good one rite..as u al can c/. Ok lah. 2m is a new day. We must appreciate it. Everyday is a present given to us by God....that's y it's 2m n today is called present.

Shalom in me(-.-)
9:42 PM

Rainy day
Still. The irony...I'm still v awake now. Shouldn't we be on bed with such good weather? I dunno. A little overwhelmed with life.or perhaps a little stress for the upcoming exam...I tend to think a little more when its raining. The gentle wind that blew past us when we are on our way home makes me v comfortable. I like the cold hands of mine touching my cheeks...it makes me feel like i'm on a vacation, sinking in my own world of joy. Thans God that my life is v bless, there's nice foods, exciting activities during sept and nice friends,nice family, nice weather etc

But it sadden me when i c ppl not trying hard in their lives, n letting down such nice weather, nice home, nice school!? i miss today. hahahs. Thans to all...n i hope everyone can work hard to achieve the things u want.( Note: Not necessary working hard for exams:/)

Rainy day.

Shalom in me(-.-)
12:39 AM

X Japan has always been my and my brother favourite. Too tired to say y..but they are really talented, with Yoshiki being the best drummer in asia, hide being one of the best guitar player, Toshi with his unique voice..and all. But i m really disappointed with them, y are they like some ppl i noe, that wont treasure their lives? huh? y? Hide was found hanging himself. I love the way spiderman 3 ended it story: that said 'Everyone has a choice, And it's always up to them to choose'

There u go... =)

Shalom in me(-.-)
12:10 AM

How is everyone? This wk was actually one busy week playing away. Catching up and spending time with friends..n is also one week that make me ethu abt my sept holiday. Cos i have decided to go for a Malaysia trip with classmates n also PCF combine camp. I hope Sept will be going to be fun!

Went to Meet programme today...was encouraged by the gor gor n jie jie in university again. One thing abt Meet is that whenever i saw them serve God yet at the same time study hard, i will be inspired to b as diligent as them, setting my life rite for God.

Getting a little emo these days when i looked back at our lives in secondary. I realised all of us did change and did certainly grow a lot, each having different mindsets now. We really start to worry of our future..our careers, our life partners, n mayb our children. Yes! indeed we are all grown ups, esp poly students, who are going into the society le...

Let Grow up gracefully!hahas

Shalom in me(-.-)
8:46 PM

WeekEnds
i had a wonderful and joyful weekend. Indulging or perhaps rewarding myself with pleasures. Went to eat pasta mania(agilo olio was v nice), watch Transformer wit Wt, den followed by sweensen wit church frenzs, lastly, i bought myself a sandal. Transformers is a movie you wouldn't want to miss u noe.

THans for al this i thought, very blessed to have all the joy despite being a simple gal. Who say only great n well-known ppl can have joy... i have fun...lots of them, in fact too many to be contained. blehz=)

n to all christian, i have joy bcos i trust too much in God. 'He provides everything'

NItez le.......................................

Shalom in me(-.-)
12:00 AM

Good week ahead? A test is enough to burden me till ystd... There's always this pressure in me to do well to earn my passport to hang out late outside. Not that i'm one who loves to go out, but i do really want to spend time with my friends. But still as what niC says n along with others, family is also impt.

Dun be mistaken that my week sux..cos it's one wk that i learn how to relax despite of having test and learning how to trust in God is just as impt lo. But when it comes to trusting in God, this thing do really bother me a lot. What's my passion? I'm always admired those ppl who have a direct passion and goal for something n they will work hard for that. I dun have one..Gosh...hey, can some of u al identify with me.. It's just like a ship without it's captain, sailing aimlessly to no where.

Today, i'm quite sad also, cos it's just not the first time, but i'm encountering more n more problems that makes me think that mayb i should give up my piano..it's so so0o0o expensive, yet...hai..

its alrite, Goodnite all. Learning not to worry too much can be good too...ha ha.

Joy with u!

Shalom in me(-.-)
11:06 PM

being v busy over the weekends for GoD... For sat, i went to MEET jm n for sun, i went for church games day..which practically take up my whole day. haven been doing my homewk den.

V often i asked shouldn't i spend these time instead at home improving myself?
The interesting thing abt this weekends is that other than all the fun, I think i appreciate the ppl i met. I had really imparted from them qualities that cannot be learn fr books, rather it's because of their characters that motivate me to be humble and also stirring up my passions and putting these passions into actions.

Wasting time hanging out with friends? a lot times i tot so, but felt the another way. Good week ahead le... take care

Shalom in me(-.-)
11:57 PM