Dear God, teach me how to love my mother more. She washes my clothes every day, iron n fold them with care.. She spent the whole day just to cook a 'simple meal' for us sometimes even though she hates cooking. She touched me when i saw her crying behind the door coping with her lowest moment, i noe that she loves the family more than anyone do in this family. She is the one who i want to respect most, Lord u noe that...

Even at times when she is really... rEAlly unreasonable, let me take a deep breath to pause..Thereafter, will u let me listen to her.

Hey ppl, v often our parents expects too much fr us, but when see how much things "she" or "he" has done for us, aren't we loving them back?

Shalom in me(-.-)
11:22 PM

Just came back with bloated stomach again.. It's mine first time going to cafe cartel, o, it's Wt first time also. So these two mountain tortoise when n asked the waiter some lose face question..

'eRm..wat's the person eating, the main course with the the sausage?'Wt
'u mean MEAT LOVER' waiter

'eRm..can u help us take the bread' me
'ok' waiter

Den later we realised that taking the bread is self-service one...hahahs

Well, i guess the food n the ambiance wasn't new to me anymore given that i'm a poly gal. But i did enjoy it cos it has been a long time where we get to seat down n talk. Hehe..(the meat lover main course not v nice, n it's realyy for MEAT LOVERS!!!!)

Shalom in me(-.-)
11:10 PM

Amen! He's mighty to save! With overwhelming of motivation from the song 'mighty to save', i have decided to stay happy n continue to live each day with happiness. Mezzo Forte(increase in vol in music terms) your tolerant n live your life beyond the skies, n al the way to the heaven. Guys!, live each day telling urselves that u are worth for the love from urself. No matter how u fail in things, or how earthly things fail you, will you promise to love yourself to the end?

Shalom in me(-.-)
10:36 PM

Listen to me!
Thans friends, esp to WT. I guess in this holiday, u did really mug alot, but u have wrote so much to me too(in friendster and letter). I always tin that Jc kids should work harder and i do hope that they will ended up in places they like. In fact, i respect those hu noes how to sacrifice other things to mug. To God, we scarifies to give the best.

I'm glad that the attachment was over, had lots of fun and had gain something too. Thans God for the grace that hold us through out. i'll blog abt it when i'm free.

u noe, Most of the time, i really think that i so weak and incompetent and in everything i do, the first thing that flash across my mind in doing everything ish, 'wat if i fail?' is this low self esteem? or perhaps, i guess everyone faces the same stress oso. The ppl now are all so smart, n watever things we do, our expectations are forever so high. And so i always 'force' myself to be humble. U noe, God has a purpose for us, n we are created to suit the purpose.

Wt n hui are rite too, our family members are so un-likeable, hateable(if there's words like this), n sometimes they make me feel so *, watever it is..i'm always reminded that all parents love their children no matter what.

Off to mug too! I'm going to do my best too. Weee, jia you to all hu mug too=)

Shalom in me(-.-)
10:55 PM

would i rmb today?
hai..had headache on n off today. When i came home, I had no choice other than drinking a cup of tea. N cafine really make me stop having headaches. I realised that i had drank too much coffee n tea for the past few days that without it, my head would grew numb n then ache. I'm going to stop drinking them... or i'll be relying so much on them.

The worst thing today is that our team quarrelled and it's my first time seeing one of them giving us attitude n another shouting across the lane, deciding to leave us n settled his own lunch. Me? Quite pissed off too.

Luke was v disappointed with us because both of us were late. The sentence that struck me most guilty is that (fr luke) :' the first thing i woke up in the morning, i had a big headache, but i still managed to drag myself here on time, what about u all?'. When come to think abt it, luke was really the one who is supposed to be the most tired because he had work 9 hours the previous day. He told me that if we are going to jeopardise our teammates when we are late, it's really mean. The only time when we can be late is that it wont affect anyone. ya.. that's true

I was also taken by surprised when our egoistic team leader actually said sorry when he never really does. Hai.. I hope everything will be alrite 2m.

In bet, the father day event we organised today is still well done n it's also thanks to hui hu came down last minute to help us out with the folding of balloons.

k..off to go do homework.

Everything bad turns out good. Thanks God.

Shalom in me(-.-)
9:30 PM

It has been just 3 days!
Feeling a little sick n weary having tot of rushing down to lavender again to the old folks home?. hmmm...tempted to say yea. but it was truly meaningful and that the things we learnt are more than just knowledge. I would say this experience means a thousand pictures. hahas.

DO you know how TV reality show come to life, and the depleted house i saw practically sent me a huge sign'hai'. Firstly having a little irritated with the messy state of houses, erm imagine your room that is filled with 80's type of cardboard, dinning table n stuff, or having 30 over keys without the locks( then wat are these keys for) , with fresh bisket contained in rusty tin? tgt with bits n pieces of clothes that looked like the unwanted rags thrown on the floor. how about patches of red paints spattered at the door? O no, neverhteless.. these are the extreme few casez out of the hundreds unit we went to lah.

Ah ma.
2 ah ma in their 90's have leave something for us to learn too. The one i talk to to ystd, was a dream grandma mayb i would want. She had only spoken of good words of others( hard to find one now?), her children-like sincerity shown in her smile brightens mine life. but she's really duple stubborn..No matter wat, she made sure we can eat( jiat) something also. Den we went to her house upon her invitation. At her house, she insisted that we should eat something too. Mind you, she house has much lesser food than mine house..so can u all already imagine how little things she has? hahas... ok, She offered us plain bisket n all of us was forced to eat a lot . We burst out into laughter when daniel looking so pitiful telling the ah ma that he was full already.
I tot she was sincere but more often than not we cant really accept her offers and her kindness. Forgetful she is, sturborn she is n the fact that we are not going to bring high hopes to her... we were told by our supervisor not to treat her so good... C life isn't abt always treating others good, it's abt how much you can afford to be nice.

WOw...so many things to share. but i'm so lazy to type. good nite. i misses her.hahas

Shalom in me(-.-)
9:30 PM

Him
I heard a loud bang today again. And i was super afraid. The strength of him, both mentally and physically crippled; or perhaps has been crippling me. The reaction of being nonchalant is just trying to tell myself that it's my carelessness that caused him another sleepless night and i respected him. My fear had turned my 'nvm attitude' as a reflex action already. I hope this will never happened again, but from the day when i ran away fr home and began to allow my soul to step out if this House, I knew his fierceness has instilled me a forever fear and grievance within me. To what extend could i love him, to what extend should i hate him?

Shalom in me(-.-)
1:52 AM

Hai, there's so much things to talk about this time

I have just finish my exam n feeling whole lot of relief. THis time round i tried the hardest for it... with al the unbearable mugging moments. n i hope the results will turn well. but just as i think, only some papers are done well. Well, even though i was not v stress abt tests but there were several things that r so unpleasant to even feel sad abt it. Pain isn't just a word to describe me. COuld anyone be luckily than me that my test paper is lost. ( secretly i tot tt i'm an unlucky child) But i'm seriously going to be contented with my life. Den she accused me of not studying hard. If everyone says that i have an innocent face, y cant this applies to her. Mayb nex time i'll just try n try until i pleases her okay?

Next wk, i'm going to be attached to Peace(an old folks home) foor my MEET programme. though i cant set my foot on other conutry, i count my blessing that i'm able to serve God just as well. lalalalah. SO exicted abt it! hahahhahas

Shalom in me(-.-)
10:32 PM

ERm... it has been a long truely indeed that i haven update it. have experience downhill n uphill of God. The only thing i would conclude is that i need God..n the more i'm right in him, the more passionate i'm in life. It's test wk nex mon onwards..i hope do well.

Well, for all christians reading my blog.. God has been v real in my life, i experience the sweetness in fellowship in him before. Though it may be v little, but the sweetness is already enough to keep me contented.

My life? it revolve around my friends, study n day dreaming. hahahs

Shalom in me(-.-)
6:26 PM